Friday, 28 October 2011


It is so annoying when I am about to press something on the screen and suddenly the image jumps and I press on a wrong link. Also when I press on a folder to open and it thinks I want to edit its name...

Tuesday, 25 October 2011

Prevention is better

The thing which can prevent "the ugly sisters" (religion, nationalism, ideology) to completely take over peoples' minds is a good broad education. Not that there couldn't be a well educated "monster" but in majority people become wiser when learned and are less liked to get their minds scrambled. Even more important is the possibility of free interaction with people of many different opinions and sets of mind. Then its obvious that other people, not sharing imposed on you worldview, are quite normal, kind, happy, not some strange evil creatures as may be pictured by "ugly sisters'"propaganda.

Of course a radical communist, a racist or a religious fanatic could look nice, clever and kind on the surface too. But I think after a wile and after some "digging" the difference between a free thinker and an affected person will be obvious to anybody. There are millions of people in the world mildly affected by one or all three of "ugly sisters". They are OK. For the moment. But I have a feeling there is always a possibility of them moving towards a fanatical end.

I'm not normally in favor of military intervention by any country unless its absolutely necessary to prevent a genocide. I think if anybody want to help people living under tyranny, cruel law and with closed minds they should help to educate them, to broaden their minds. Invite lots of them into your universities, broadcast to them, send your teachers to them. And then the bloodshed may not be needed at all.

Monday, 24 October 2011

Three ugly sisters

There are three things that can really turn somebody to a zombie: religion, nationalism and ideology. The third one is the weakest one and wears off quicker than her older sisters because of less stigma attached. If a person is giving up his religion he is often called a heretic and is threaten with hell. If a person is giving up his nationalism he is blamed to be a traitor of his mother/fatherland. And anyway, the ethnicity and the place of birth is not somebody can easily change. But ideology... Look what happened to communism...

Friday, 21 October 2011

Amoeba states

I think it is not right to judge a state as one would judge a person - to be good or bad, to take right or wrong decision - unless that state is run single handled by just one ruler (which is virtually impossible). The states are more like unintelligent amoebae: they feed, they grow, they divide...  A state will always mind its own benefits first although some of its citizents, including even ones in governement, could be very altruistic.

Saturday, 15 October 2011

Love, marriage and... religion with its RULES

Some time ago I've heard a lady on TV saying "I reinvent my marriage every seven years". Seven or not, its a good idea. To try and look at your partner in a slightly different way, for example to feel  yourself as the most devoted member of his fan club. To have an urge to tell the world of his exceptional qualities, as could be honesty, loyalty, commitment, striving to do his best and always be the good person.

When I tried to be religious, lots of strange rules affected our relationship. I constantly had to feel guilty - and without even offending any real being... Guilty of not loving my "imaginary friend" more than my husband and kids, guilty of not trying to convert my man to the Orthodoxy as I was told by a priest, guilty of having sex on the wrong day of the week, in the wrong time of the year (e.g. lent), guilty of enjoying it and not having babies all the time. The fact that there is practically no divorce in the Russian Orthodox Church made me very scared from time to time: what if I made a mistake being young and inexperienced? Now, honestly analyzing myself, I realized I've for sure met my dream man in my husband and I, alone, with all my heart, decide to stick with him for the rest of my life. Its my happy and free choice. No invisible beings with silly rules involved.

Speaking of silly rules. From time to time I've been forgetting that on particular days I'm "unclean", "dirty" or whatever that disgusting church Slavonic word ("в нечистоте") meant, and I was touching the icons when tidying the house or dusting. Horrible sin! Several "sin books" sold at various church kiosks told me so. I had to tell a priest (an absolutely strange man) about this. Such a disturbing experience. Also at the end of church services almost everybody went to kiss priest's hand. I hate kissing strangers so that was another thing I dreaded and at the same time blamed myself for dreading...

I had Romanian neighbours giving me lifts to the church and on one occasion when we went here there was a traditional "kiss every other person in the church" ceremony. The poor Romanian man, why presumably couldn't stand this kind of things too, went hiding. I hope these nice and intelligent people eventually would clear of this common mental illness called "religion".

People use to see a "nice" face of religion: temples, glittering gold, procession, singing. But there is another side, its dark and very, very unpleasant. And absolutely unnecessary as I understand now. All my hopeless efforts to be a "good christian" didn't give me any more love, satisfaction or inspiration. I felt confused, depressed and... "dirty". Not any more.

Religion could also be dangerous to your life. After my mother had a serious operation the doctors told her to stick to a strict diet. She went to her church to ask for an advice because that diet was in conflict with the Orthodox "food rules" and a priest twice as young as her told her: "Of course you can follow that diet. On Sundays".

Of course various belivers take the "rule" business differently. But in my experience they all have some strange irrational set of rules and many feel oblidged to impose it onto others. There couldn't be a religion without some sort of dogma and a mind-killing feeling that "I am right because this is said in my little red/green/blue/whatever book".

I had some preachers knocking on my door yesterday. "Wouldn't it be nice if everybody on Earth lived in peace?" they said. Like believing in invisible friends ever stopped religious wars and persecution of infidels and so on. I tried to preach them back but I am normally a shy person, hate arguing and couldn't stand it for very long. But I have this rebellious idea of putting a note on my door saying "Preachers will be humiliated"

or starting a "humiliate a preacher" campaign... Or even better: they are coming trying to convert me but end up being converted by me. Dreams, dreams.

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Health service

While I'm still here...  I've just seen somebody from America saying on YouTube that looking at British NHS bill he sought that half of the country was disabled. I think when the QUALITY of the health service depends on a persons occupation is WRONG. Its so unfare. Why, say, a lawyer should enjoy better health service than a gardener, if both like they jobs, and work hard? The size of somebodies salary is not always a good indication of his or her contribution to the society, efforts to realise one's capabilities, etc. This is why a good quality free health service for everyone is a must for any civilized country.

Gold explosion

I'm glad I'm moving my studio from the bedroom to the garage: I've just squeezed the tube of golden paint (it was called Pebeo and that was my first try of it) too much and most of it went everywhere. I've scraped it up from the floor, walls and boxes and put on the board - nothing is lost. The picture is probably going to be called "His last glimpse of the Sun" and the golden glow is quite appropriate, even on Mars...